Monday, February 13, 2012

Birthday #3

Well, Mr. Grant turns 3 today! I really can't believe how fast time has gone by. I also can't believe that I'm embarking on my third journey. I didn't know if I would ever be back here...but here I am. I have to say I'm excited, just as I was in the past. It will be different this time because I am working, but I dislike my job so much that if it gets to be too much of a problem, I will quit. I know that things will take a long time, but I don't feel like I'm in a hurry this time. I haven't told D yet, but I do plan on doing that soon. I just have to get the guts to do it! As of right now, my only fears (so far) going into this journey are
1. telling D.
2. the thought of carrying more than one child (I hope to find someone who would like to transfer only one embryo, but I know that is rare).
3. the thought of having to have another c-section. I hope to have a v-bac, but don't even know if that's an option.
4. the fact that I may not have a journey that is ideal in my mind.

With that said, I'm more excited than fearful so I am looking forward to getting started!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Not Pregnant

Well, my tests were officially negative. I was sad, but in the end, it's what was right for us. We are moving on and no longer trying to get pregnant anymore. So wouldn't you know that right when I decide this...guess who calls? Growing Generations of course! Talk about perfect timing. If you would have asked me six months ago if I was done with surrogacy, I would have said yes, most likely. But I've changed my mind and jumping in with both feet. First, I will call D & W to let them know what my plans are. I know that they are happy with their two little bundles, but I also know that D is going to be jealous. He's told me more than once that he would be if I ever decided to do another journey. I hope he will be accepting and happy for another couple (or single) who may be blessed just as they were. After that...filling out the application again.

I'm starting to get excited and nothing has even happened yet! Here we go again!!