Thursday, August 28, 2008

Baby update

It's been awhile since my last post because the last time I had a whole post typed out and then my daughter came and erased the whole thing with the press of one button. Nevertheless, I didn't feel like retyping the whole thing so I just forgot about it.
I had my OB appt. today and they did yet another U/S. She said that there was an enlarged area in the peritoneal cavity - like maybe an enlarged kidney or something. When the Dr. came in, he didn't seem too concerned about it though so I'm not really worried. He told me to schedule my next appt. for one month and at that time we would do the measuring U/S and see if anything looks abnormal then.
The Dr.s office that I use has only the Dr. and a PA. The PA decided to quit and move on so now they will have to hire somebody new. That kind of sucks to have to get used to someone new now. Today was the first time I even saw the Dr. (I know who he is because he was the Dr. on call when I went into labor with my daughter so he delivered her.)
I hope everything ends up okay and I'm sure it will. I do know that it is for sure a boy! That will make B & B happy. I won't have any news to update until after October starts because I scheduled the appt. for after my vacation. I will try to post something in the meantime but hopefully nothing happens before then.

Friday, August 15, 2008

2nd OB visit

I had my second OB visit yesterday and the remaining baby is doing fine. The other two are still there - fully, they just aren't alive anymore. That is so weird to think about. The sacs are supposed to shrink but I learned that it won't happen right away. I feel huge - and that is why. For now my OB visits are pretty close together and for awhile at least, I will have an U/S each time I go in. She saw a pocket of blood and we need to watch it to make sure it doesn't grow. I had a babysitter this whole week since I wasn't supposed to lift more than 10 lbs. or stand for more than 30 min. at a time. She left a little while ago and I am excited to be able to hold my kids again. While it was nice having her here, at the same time I am happy to be on my own again. We are going camping this weekend so I am also looking forward to being able to go on a walk (provided it stops raining). Therefore, I am hoping I won't start bleeding or anything crazy while I am out in the middle of nowhere (lol). Two more weeks until my next appt. and then around 20 weeks when they do the U/S to measure the baby, B&B should be coming out for that appt. They want to meet the Dr. but even I haven't met him yet so I hope they won't be disappointed. (I have only seen the PA but I like her). Until next time...

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Moving on (Sad post)

Yesterday was definately one of the hardest days of my life. It was something I make a conscious decision never to have to go through again. After we got to the Dr.s office, she took us back to "talk". She just wanted to discuss the complications of carrying triplets and twins. She was discussing how hard it can be for the babies as most are born very prematurely - this didn't make it any easier for me. I just sat there thinking to myself "Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry". I could feel it building up but I was able to hold it in for the most part. When we moved on to the procedure room, it was just me, my husband, and one IF. The other IF couldn't be in the room. She was to do a full U/S first before proceding. I didn't want to hear or see anything as I had seen all three babies on Tues. when I went to my OB appt. Soon after I laid on the table I broke down and burst out crying - I couldn't hold it in any longer. After she did the U/S she got prepared for the procedure. I closed my eyes as I didn't want to see anything. She gave me a shot of numbing medicine and in went the needle. It hurt so bad I think I was just crying out in pain. I just kept praying over and over for those babies as I was crying. The second time wasn't quite as bad as the first but it was not pleasant. All I can say is it was extremely painful - both physically and emotionally.

I am glad that it is past me now and we can move on and focus on the good things. I know this will be with me for a long time but I will heal with that time. I don't have any hard feelings in the end. Having gone through this once, I choose never to do it again - that's just the way it has to be. It's too hard. Physically I feel good today and I now know that I am carrying a really healthy baby (measuring 14 weeks yesterday) (boy-we're pretty sure) and I will just celebrate the good that is left to come. I have another OB appt. on Thursday in which they will do another U/S to check how everything is going. This week I have to hire a babysitter to come over to take care of my kids. I can't lift more than 10 lbs. or stand for more than 30 min. at a time. I meet with her tomorrow. It will be weird because I won't know what to do with myself.

I want to post a pic. of my belly while I was still carrying triplets because I don't think it will ever happen again.

Monday, August 4, 2008

The Big Week

I have a lot going on this week. I have my first OB appt. tomorrow which I am glad, but I think it will be weird as well. I need to tell them about these awful headaches I have been having. I am having them all the time. Migraines and just regular (painful) headaches. The weird part will be telling them that I am a surrogate, pregnant with three babies, but the next time they see me, I will only be pregnant with one. My husband and I leave on Thursday afternoon to fly out to LA and the procedure will be performed on Friday morning. One thing that really helped was that I found a forum that had posts from ladies that had fertility problems and had undergone IVF. They were either facing a reduction or had already gone through the procedure. I can only imagine how much more tough a decision it was for these ladies because these were their own children. I just want to say that I don't feel as guilty as I have recently. I truly am looking forward to moving on. I got to hold a sweet sweet baby at a friends baby shower yesterday and I can't wait until I can provide this baby to his/her new parents. And I also can't wait to hold the little one. I am so glad that I won't be taking the baby home and having to breastfeed and wake up at all hours of the night to feed him/her. Exciting times!!!