Thursday, April 19, 2012

Officially Retired

WOW! What a turn of events. I recently started a new job which was complicating my surrogacy plans. After speaking with someone from the agency, I decided to put my surrogacy plans on hold for one month. Well, on 4/3, I came home from work and felt like I already wanted to quit my job so I could pursue the surrogacy. I decided to take a pregnancy test to make sure everything could go as I'd hoped, but then everything came crashing down. The pregnancy test was a clear, without-a-doubt positive. After totally losing it and throwing a bit of a fit, I calmed down and let the news sink in.

Fast forward to yesterday, while at work I started cramping and bleeding. My mind went straight back to my last miscarriage as I though for sure that was what was happening. Today I went to the doctor during my lunch hour and he did a superfast U/S and low and behold, we saw a flicker of a heartbeat.

So... it looks like we are having one more baby for this family!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Birthday #3

Well, Mr. Grant turns 3 today! I really can't believe how fast time has gone by. I also can't believe that I'm embarking on my third journey. I didn't know if I would ever be back here...but here I am. I have to say I'm excited, just as I was in the past. It will be different this time because I am working, but I dislike my job so much that if it gets to be too much of a problem, I will quit. I know that things will take a long time, but I don't feel like I'm in a hurry this time. I haven't told D yet, but I do plan on doing that soon. I just have to get the guts to do it! As of right now, my only fears (so far) going into this journey are
1. telling D.
2. the thought of carrying more than one child (I hope to find someone who would like to transfer only one embryo, but I know that is rare).
3. the thought of having to have another c-section. I hope to have a v-bac, but don't even know if that's an option.
4. the fact that I may not have a journey that is ideal in my mind.

With that said, I'm more excited than fearful so I am looking forward to getting started!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Not Pregnant

Well, my tests were officially negative. I was sad, but in the end, it's what was right for us. We are moving on and no longer trying to get pregnant anymore. So wouldn't you know that right when I decide this...guess who calls? Growing Generations of course! Talk about perfect timing. If you would have asked me six months ago if I was done with surrogacy, I would have said yes, most likely. But I've changed my mind and jumping in with both feet. First, I will call D & W to let them know what my plans are. I know that they are happy with their two little bundles, but I also know that D is going to be jealous. He's told me more than once that he would be if I ever decided to do another journey. I hope he will be accepting and happy for another couple (or single) who may be blessed just as they were. After that...filling out the application again.

I'm starting to get excited and nothing has even happened yet! Here we go again!!

Friday, January 20, 2012

Babies Turn One!!!

Well, I honestly can't believe a year has already passed! The babies just turned one on Wednesday (the 18th) and it's amazing to me how far they've come. I'm very grateful that with them being born early, as of yet they haven't experienced negative outcomes. They are beautiful and Daddies are still super proud.

As for me...well I've been working full time (super hard when you haven't worked in five years!) and I know this isn't my dream job, but I'm trying to stick with it until it ends as it is a temporary position. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant with one last child of our own for about five months now...with no luck. I've even been to the doctor a couple of times. Well, finally after months of OPK testing and many tests later, I got a positive OPK last Friday (1/13/12). I will probably wait until Feb. 1 to take a pregnancy test. As it turns out, if I am NOT pregnant, we will not attempt anymore. I think that we both feel in our hearts that we will be at peace with moving on with our lives. But, with that being said, I really want to be pregnant again ;). So of course this may mean one last surrogacy journey!!! Stay tuned to see what is in the future, either way I am excited!