And I'm not just talking morning sickness. I've got some stomach bug that I feel is slowly killing me. I am in so much pain and I'm so afraid to put any food into my mouth. I'd give anything to take some pepto right now. I'm not in a very happy place!
Besides not having much to say, I'm just not as happy as I feel I should be...thus I haven't been posting much. I'm really hoping it's just my hormones and it will pass. I thought I would feel so ecstatic about being pregnant with twins, but I'm just not. I'm only posting this so I can look back and remember how I felt at this point in time. Right now, I feel like this will be my last surrogacy journey. I just don't think I have the passion to pursue this anymore. I question myself every day if I'm even doing the right thing now. A little late to have these feelings now, I know. With my son, I had severe depression at a point in the pregnancy - I'm assuming due to hormones. I hope I am just having a little "down" time and it will pass soon.
IF's come out on Sunday upon which we will go out to dinner. Monday we have another U/S. Then comes the fun of having to look for an OB which, if you can't tell, I'm not looking forward to. Oh boy!
I think we finally did it...we finally have something growing in there! Can you believe it? I still can't. There are two little babies in there, each with a perfect little heartbeat! I was in a panic this morning thinking for sure there were three, but nope, just two. :) D&W will be out for the next U/S at which point they will be able to see with their own eyes their little babies they've waited so long for. We are all pretty thrilled!
Man, hormones really rule my life! I've been so angry lately...at least I know to chalk it up to all the hormones running rampant in my system. I just can't believe I feel like this already. At least I know what it is and not that I'm totally crazy. During my first pregnancy (with my son) I became so depressed that I felt I was having a real problem. Only after the fact did I realize that it was just my hormones. Uuuugghhh!!
I've also started feeling very nauseous already - starving one second (which makes me feel really ill) and then I eat and I'm totally full the next (which also makes me feel ill if I take even one too many bites). Yeah I'm complaining...this is the first trimester for me and I question my motives every time I go through this. I just keep telling myself "only seven more weeks". I know I can do it! I'm also already counting down the days until I stop my progesterone shots, 15 and counting!