So Irritated

The doctor called me today and said that the egg donor is ready to go! That got me so excited. Then I spoke to D and he said that he was told the retrieval was going to be the 3rd week of May. Therefore, putting the transfer in the 4th week. That's 2 whole months away! I am so irritated with this whole process. We had our first transfer in July and now getting closer to a year and a handful of transfers later, we have nothing to show for it. IF I do actually get pregnant this time, then I will be pregnant the exact same time as I was with Grant (we transferred May 25). I really hope that the transfer time is the only thing that will be similar...I say that because I know we will be transferring 3 embryos this time so I really don't want a repeat reduction.

I'm just so mad (one of my favorite Mercer Mayer books).

Just Have to Update

I don't have any good news to post, but I just have to write about what I found out today. D called just a bit ago and asked if I was sitting down. He told me that their egg donor has chlamydia and hepatitis B. WOW! and DAMN! The news is (yeah, there's actually good news about this situation) that another donor was dropped by her IP's (still not sure why) and she was just getting ready to cycle. We may be able to pick up our cycle pretty much where we left off...just with another donor. I should know more in the next few days.

One of these days...if I'm up to it, I will try to post about how emotional this second journey has been for me. Maybe if I write it down, I will be able to move past it all because it's still eating me up inside.