Wednesday, April 21, 2010

So Much for That!!!

Scrap that calendar! AFTER the calendar was made, the egg donor decided she doesn't want to be on meds for finals and she can't give herself shots by herself while on vacation. So now everything is going to be pushed back into a different month.

All I can say is I really hope this next transfer is a successful one because if it's not, I may just be calling it quits. I can't take this stress anymore. I even had to put on waterproof mascara this morning because I knew I would be crying about this fu*@ed up situation today.

You know what? I just have to keep reminding myself that it could be so much worse. I just got off the phone with a friend whose husband had an affair. I feel for her and just want to be able to take the pain away, but I know I can't. So I need to stop complaining and pick myself up and move on (although it's still hard).


AnGèLe said...

Hang in there hun! All these set backs just mean it wasnt the right journey for you!! YOUR right journey will find you!!! And when it does, it will be amazing and well worth the wait! xo

MrsKnight said...

Ugh. What a bummer! I can't imagine depending on someone else to do my shots (just do it!) and if you're willing to donate then WHY would shots on vacation matter? Although I can understand - possibly - that being on meds during finals COULD affect concentration.

Just think how affected your IPs are by the loss of their calendar; that puts it in perspective. It must be awful having so little control over the conception and birth of their own children.