27 Weeks

I seriously can't believe I'm only 27 weeks pregnant! At this exact moment, I feel like I could simply explode. I don't know why I was ever excited to carry twins. A lot of the time it sounds better to do something than to actually do it. I now know without a doubt that I will get stretch marks and I'm still terrified by that thought. My belly feels so huge right now that I just can't imagine it getting any bigger. The babies are getting big enough now that they are starting to kick (or punch - whatever) me in places that are very uncomfortable...such as my bladder! That's not fun, especially when you already have to pee.

I'm still sleeping okay, but I have a feeling it won't be too much longer. I really hope the next several weeks go by very quickly. I'm already looking forward to losing weight and attempting to tone before our Mexico vacation in May! Here's belly pic at 27 weeks...

26 Weeks

So I had my OB appt. today and it was a very quick one. He measured the fluid which looks good (and by the way, I have had an U/S every single appt. so far). Baby A went from transverse to butt first so it seems he's having a hard time trying to turn around. Doc seems to think that he may stay this way (will have to try some of Mrs. Knight's turning tips!) I've come to terms with the fact that I really might face a c-section this pregnancy and I'm okay now. I'm coming close to the end of my pregnancy run so I think I'll manage.

I have my next appt. in two weeks when he will measure the growth again. Doc seems to think I will deliver around 35 to 36 weeks, but I am pretty confident, they will come closer to 38. I have to say 36 does sound nice though :) Here's today's pic. I know I may not look that big, but it sure feels like it!


















I've pulled a muscle in my right rib area, but other than that, I'm doing pretty well so far. Not too many physical complaints!

24 Weeks

Had an OB appt. today with yet another U/S. Babies are doing good, both weighing around 1.5 lbs each. The are both transverse right now...the same way which is why I've only been feeling movement on the right side. I've gained 18 lbs so far which I feel is a lot (if only I could stop eating so much sugar!) Had my GTT today so hopefully I won't hear anything from the doctor's office as I don't want to have to do a 3 hour GTT. Had a cervical check today and my cervix is measuring that of a non-pregnant woman - 4cm! Definitely no signs of PTL here. I now start going to appointments every two weeks.

Had a good time with D today. He will probably be back in about a month for another appointment. He was very thrilled to be able to feel the babies moving today!

Relief

I spoke with the psychologist today and she assured me that my feelings are completely normal and it is quite possible that venting will help my frustrations a lot. She just reminded me to keep in mind what I am doing and what the end goal is...and how without me it wouldn't be possible for these two to be created and in the end with the ones that will love them so much.

It just felt good to know that I'm not the only surrogate with these feelings. The feelings I am talking about include: frustration, irritation, resentment, unhappiness, slight depression - I think that about sums it up. I just have to remember that I won't be pregnant forever. There is an end in sight and it will be a wonderful one!

A Wish

I really wish I could have the optimism and outlook on life that so many others have. I feel like I have so much negativity inside me right now...that can't be healthy - for anyone!