Friday, July 16, 2010

Down

Besides not having much to say, I'm just not as happy as I feel I should be...thus I haven't been posting much. I'm really hoping it's just my hormones and it will pass. I thought I would feel so ecstatic about being pregnant with twins, but I'm just not. I'm only posting this so I can look back and remember how I felt at this point in time. Right now, I feel like this will be my last surrogacy journey. I just don't think I have the passion to pursue this anymore. I question myself every day if I'm even doing the right thing now. A little late to have these feelings now, I know. With my son, I had severe depression at a point in the pregnancy - I'm assuming due to hormones. I hope I am just having a little "down" time and it will pass soon.

IF's come out on Sunday upon which we will go out to dinner. Monday we have another U/S. Then comes the fun of having to look for an OB which, if you can't tell, I'm not looking forward to. Oh boy!

3 comments:

leikay2 said...

I'm so sorry you are feeling so down..((HUGS)) I am sure it is just the hormones. If you need a Dr. recommendation I have one, he is GREAT and very open to surrogacy.

COsurromommy said...

Where is he located and with what hospital?

TXSurromom said...

I hope that is just a temporary thing...that can be so hard to work through, but you are doing such a great thing for your IFs!!! Hope you get a pick me up soon and that your feelings start to turn around.