Friday, July 16, 2010


Besides not having much to say, I'm just not as happy as I feel I should be...thus I haven't been posting much. I'm really hoping it's just my hormones and it will pass. I thought I would feel so ecstatic about being pregnant with twins, but I'm just not. I'm only posting this so I can look back and remember how I felt at this point in time. Right now, I feel like this will be my last surrogacy journey. I just don't think I have the passion to pursue this anymore. I question myself every day if I'm even doing the right thing now. A little late to have these feelings now, I know. With my son, I had severe depression at a point in the pregnancy - I'm assuming due to hormones. I hope I am just having a little "down" time and it will pass soon.

IF's come out on Sunday upon which we will go out to dinner. Monday we have another U/S. Then comes the fun of having to look for an OB which, if you can't tell, I'm not looking forward to. Oh boy!


leikay2 said...

I'm so sorry you are feeling so down..((HUGS)) I am sure it is just the hormones. If you need a Dr. recommendation I have one, he is GREAT and very open to surrogacy.

COsurromommy said...

Where is he located and with what hospital?

TXSurromom said...

I hope that is just a temporary thing...that can be so hard to work through, but you are doing such a great thing for your IFs!!! Hope you get a pick me up soon and that your feelings start to turn around.