Follow along as I dive into the emotional world of becoming a surrogate mother.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Not much new to update except that baby A is still transverse...making that the third appointment in a row. Tonight I had a feeling in my lower abdomen (not really a contraction) that reminded me of going into labor and when that happens my body tenses up and I start shaking. I just get so terrified of that intense pain. Fortunately my labors are fast, but I'm not one of those lucky women who seem to just breeze through labor. I usually say some things I probably shouldn't and tend to panic in the end so I question myself every time as to why I did this to myself again. The only reason I'm saying this is because I don't think I can do this birth with nothing to help me...meaning some form of drug. I'm aware that if I have to have a c-section the decision will be made for me so I'm not putting too much thought into it, but nevertheless, I am nervous!