I have decided to take a break from all things surrogacy for a while. My beta is scheduled for Thursday, but I am expecting a negative beta. I know a miracle could still happen, but they simply don't happen to me - never have. I don't know where we will go from here...these 3 embryos we just transferred were D&W's last. I am extremely depressed right now - the hormones don't help and I still have to take them for another 4 days. I am more sad now than I was with the miscarriage because at least we could move on and quickly from that, but now any option we have will take quite a long time - if they decide to still work with me. I am now one step closer to looking like a surrogate that nobody wants to use - which has always been my biggest fear.
I honestly never thought I would end up here.......
It's All About the Timing
1 year ago