I did it

I shipped my last shipment of milk to Grant on Wednesday. And so it is done! I can't believe it. I feel so free. So I had to do it - I asked my FIF's if they were planning on having another baby. I know, I know, it is way early to even think about that but my mind is always planning away. Anyway, they said their plan was always to have 2 children but it is too early to know what their plans are right now. What does that mean to me? I think we will have another of our own next. We will probably start trying toward the end of the summer and see what happens.

Here is the latest on the growing baby front!

Weaning

It has been awhile since my last post and things are going good. I feel so much more like myself now (thank God) and I am finally starting to wean off of pumping. I actually slept through the night for the past two nights and it is wonderful. I'm down to 3 pumpings a day and I'm hoping to be done within the next week. It looks like Grant's daddies are having a good time being parents so that makes me happy - they are great people. I just can't say how happy I am to be back to normal. Toward the end of the pregnancy, my face started to look terrible with a red rash and now it is finally beginning to clear up. The only thing that will suck about my hormones returning to normal is that I expect to start losing alot of hair pretty soon. Also there is one thing that will suck about stopping pumping and that is that my boobs will shrink back to normal size - I sure do wish they would stay this size all the time. Oh well. There is an SMO GTG in the first weekend of April and although I am no longer an active surrogate, I still want to catch up on all of the other ladies journeys. Here's one of the latest baby pics!

Putting it All Behind Me

I started working on a scrapbook today to document my surrogacy. I want to have something that I can look back on to make me smile. This journey was such a huge part of my life and I want to remember it forever. With that said, it is also something that I need to put behind me for now. I know I would like to pursue another journey in the future but for the time being, I want to get my life back to some form of pre-surrogacy normalness. Therefore, as soon as I complete my scrapbook, I am also going to put pumping to rest. I am hoping to complete everything within the next week. I think this will all help me to move on and forward with my life.

Ups and Downs

I have to say that I have been having some serious up and downs lately. I can't wait until these hormones settle down. One day will be the worst day for me and the next I can feel totally elated. Unfortunately, my thoughts are still constantly on being pregnant. After doing a lot of reading, it appears that this can be a common thing amongst surrogates. I've been finding it difficult to keep my mind occupied with other things. I have joined facebook and that has been fun. I really can't wait until the weather changes (although it really has been pretty nice lately) and I can get out and do some camping. I need to get away from the computer and get back to nature. I'm hoping that will help. Next Friday will one month since Grant was born and around this time is when I plan to begin weaning myself from pumping. I really think I need to get my life back in check and I think this may help with my hormones and all. Today is a happy day and I'm so thankful - I hope to have more and more of these in the upcoming future. :)

First shipment

I sent my first shipment of milk out yesterday via UPS and received a call from B this morning saying that it arrived without a hitch. Yea!! I didn't use any dry ice so I was nervous but it made it all still frozen solid. When the shipping lady asked me what I was shipping I told her breastmilk and she just gave me a smile. Then she asked the declared value and I paused and then said, priceless - because it honestly is. I would have died if it would have melted. All the work I put into pumping and saving that milk - it wasn't easy. Still pumping but maybe for only 2 more weeks and then these boobs are going to receive some healing time.

Update

I have to say it was nice to hear from B yesterday. He called and said that Grant is doing great. They are super busy with a new load of laundry every day (I remember those days). I am excited that I will be shipping my first batch of milk out tomorrow. This will be the first breastmilk that Grant has had period. He had teeny-tiny syringes full of colostrum at the hospital but that's it. Since they all left for home so soon after the birth, I wasn't able to give them anything else. I think I have decided that I am going to continue pumping for another week or two so I can give Grant some good stuff but since I am not a good milk producer, I don't want to kill myself trying to pump either. I will be happy with that. And I know they will be too. Fortunately, they are really awesome and I am so happy that everything has turned out the way it has.