Still Waiting (tmi post)

I'm still waiting for the official confirmation to quit my meds and such. The U/S tech said, "It doesn't look good", but we still don't have the official report - should be in today sometime. My beta was at 3636 and should be in between 4-5,000. I need to go back in tomorrow to retake it. I have a feeling it is already beginning to drop. This whole process is so disheartening. I just felt like everything was going so well and then *BAM* just like that it could be over. I bled for about 6 hours on Sunday and passed 3 large and 2 small clots. I knew it would be over, but I still held out hope as I've spoken with other ladies that have gone through the same exact thing and they are still pregnant or have given birth. When the U/S tech said it didn't look right in there, I knew there was nothing to hold out hope for anymore. I'm just waiting for it to be official. I can't believe that we have to do this all over again after who knows how much time.