Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Officially Over

So this cycle is officially over. My beta today was down to the 900's from the 3000's. I am sad, but I'll get over it. This whole experience really leaves me with a less optimistic outlook. I want so badly for this to work because I love the relationship I have with my new IF's. I know that everybody wants that though - nothing new. I am really trying to not feel sorry for myself, but I know it will take just a little time to get out of this slump. There are so many reasons (some pretty silly) for my anger. I'm not going to get into them, but that's the reason it will take time. Right now, I can't even say that I am excited about the next cycle, probably because there is so much I have to go through before we will even get to that point. I'm sure I will feel differently the closer it gets.

Anyway, I stopped my meds and unfortunately since it was just a partial miscarriage, I still have more to go. I'm just really hoping it won't be super painful. If it doesn't happen on it's own then I will have to go in for a D&C. I just want to put this behind me and move on - it's all I can do.


Baby Maker said...

awww HUGS, i know it doesnt help any but it you need to chat you can email me! georgiasurro at aol

hope you feel better (emotionally and physically) soon

Kelly's Uterus said...

I'm sorry. This is one of my worries about my 2nd journey too . . . things went off without a hitch the first time around . . . I'm hoping things will go well again, you just never know.

My thoughts are with you all.